sorry to say that.

to be honest, i am trying.
to be the person that everyone think i suppose to be.

working in a bank ..
the so called "secure" job in the town..

i should appreciate it.
as not everyone have the chance to work in the bank.
the so called.. "masa depan cerah"

but why,
when every night before i fall asleep, 
something is burning.. inside my heart..

i am not satisfied with what i'm doing.

i am not happy with what is going on currently.

now, i even feel like want to escape.
to a place that i do not need to face this
FUCKING BLOODING issue.

perhaps, i need to rest.
perhaps, i just need a pair of ears.

but in fact, i dun have choices.
what i need to do is just shut my mouth up.
and go forward.

*keep what you love, trash what you don't
stay where you love, leave where you don't*
this is what i always tell myself.

but why, its sounds so sarcastic in this moment ?